Twenty years ago today my mom lost her husband, my uncle lost his only brother and my sisters, brother and I lost our dad. It was sudden and unexpected. I can recall the day like it just happened. It was the beginning of a new season in my life.
A season filled with many loses. It was 1994. I was laid off from my job, a relationship ended, I was forced to move…then my dad died. Up to that point, however, dad was there for me. Comforting, encouraging and loving me. Those were sweet times with him.
Those sweet days ended after his death, I felt so lost and so alone. I did not feel like anybody understood what I was experiencing. What was I going to do without my dad? About a month after his death I moved into an apartment, living by myself for the first time in my life. I had this overwhelming hole in my heart. I was afraid and felt abandoned. The pain was so real.
A pain that I seemed to be drowning in. A hole the size of Texas. What I was to soon discover, with the help and prayers of an amazing friend, was that there was Someone who could fill that hole in my heart, someone who could be there to comfort, encourage and love me. Someone who understood me more than anyone ver had. That day, December 1, 1994, I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. My life changed forever.
I still miss my dad. But today I know that it took losing him to be able to see what I really needed, what I had always been missing. What I had been searching for in all the wrong places and in all the wrong people. All I ever needed was Jesus Christ, He is all I will ever need.
Filling a need is something we all try to do. I written this because you may lonely, lost and with a God-sized hole in your heart, just like I was. I want to encourage you to stop looking in the wrong places, and look up…look to the One who can comfort you….to fill all of your needs, Jesus Christ.
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.” (Ephesians 3:20-21 NIV)