Mornings Light

“Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.”  James 1:17

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When night gives way
To mornings light,
My heart sees Jesus there.
The shadows now all disappear,
His path now so abundantly clear.

The dawn has broke
Through the dark.
I’m stayed on Christ alone.
His will be done, His promises sure,
My trust in Him a precious cure.
I fully submit my life and will
To the blessed trinity.
God the Father carries me,
Jesus Christ in me is with,
The Holy Spirit covers me- my friend it’s not a myth.

Be well my soul-rest assured,
All God’s hope and promises true.
My circumstances not beyond His reach.
He hears my cries all night,
And in the morning I see His light.

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The Storms of Life

I fell asleep last night with the wind whipping outside. I awoke this morning to rain hitting my bedroom window. Last night’s wind brought this morning rain. Kind of like life.

There are times when what is happening in our lives can make us feel like we cannot stand. Its force so strong, like last night’s wind. It may seem to suddenly stop, bringing a quiet and peace in our midst. But this particular whipping wind brought with it clouds bursting with heavy rain.

I have always love the winds that are so strong they physically move my body. I like those winds when I can see what its force is doing. In the daytime when I can see the trees blowing, and the clouds being rearranged in the sky by the hands of an Artist, I can even see when those clouds begin to turn dark and threatening. All is well when I can see.

But at night, when there is nothing for me to see, I become anxious. What type of storm is this wind bringing forth? Of course I have no idea. But this particular storm I am in the midst of is giving me a dependence on God the likes I have never experienced. In the same way I had depended on my husband to care and provide for us. Except this is real faith and trust in One I cannot see. In the book of John we learn about the story of Thomas. We’ve heard him called doubting Thomas because he did not believe that Jesus has risen from the grave. He needed to see with his own eyes and feel with his own hands, the marks from the nails and the spear that had pierced Jesus’ body. Of course, Jesus knew his doubt. He appeared in the house where they were, stood among the disciples and said, “Peace be with you.”

I can hear Jesus speaking. His words are for me, too. For all of us. He desires that we have peace that passes our human understanding. The story continues. Then Jesus looks directly at Thomas and says to him, “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.” (John 20:29)

When we can see what lies before us, we are often more likely to put our trust and faith in God. I have written for many years about fully relying on and trusting in God. Up until now I thought I had trusted Him with everything. Yet, as I look at our life altering experiences, my husbands stroke and unknown rehabilitation and his inability to provide for us, I am so completely aware of God’s providence.

Providence is defined as the foreseeing care and guidance of God over the creatures of the earth. He knows, He sees, He cares and He will guide. Trusting in His providence…that is real faith. “Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” (Hebrews 11:1)

Yes, the wind was wild last night. It brought a storm. But, Jesus remind us, “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33). In Him I have peace in the midst of this storm. I will have joy, and peace. I am His regardless of the storm that has surrounded us. I am His and He is mine.

Dear Father God, You knew all of our days before even one came to be. I will trust in You. Second Chronicles 20:15 is being spoken to me and all of us today, “…and he said, “Listen, all Judah and the inhabitants of Jerusalem and King Jehoshaphat; thus says the Lord to you, “Do not fear or be dismayed because of this great multitude, for the battle is not yours but God’s.” I pray that we would all, no matter who we are or what we are going through, would put our trust in You, believing our prayers are answered. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

“If the clouds be full of rain, they empty themselves on the eartFullSizeRenderh.”  Eccl.  11:3

I’ve heard it said many times,
That rain clouds will bring rain.
Their darkness hovers, it’s hard to see,
Yet this is where my Savior wants me.

Thunder booms and lightning blinds,
A tree is shattered, it hits the ground.
It is the Lord, in Him I find,
Real peace; grace and joy surround.

I hold on to His faithful Word,
It reminds me I am never alone,
Though life may bring twists and turns,
He is ever faithful and guides me home.

I’ll count on Jesus every day,
No matter the circumstance.
For nothing is too big, too gray,
He knows my future in advance.

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.””  John 16:33 NIV

 

Night Vigil

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“I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him.”  Psalm‬ ‭40:1-3‬

As I write this I am sitting in the ICU keeping a night vigil of prayer for my beloved.

Life can change in an instant.  One morning you are kissing your husband goodbye and just a few hours later you are on your way to ER.  He has had a stroke.

We never plan for these events.  But when faced with them we must decide.  Am I going to be crushed and destroyed?  Or am I going to hold fast to God’s promises of hope and healing?

My choice is in God’s promises of hope and healing.  This is an overwhelming experience, in human terms.  But to our sovereign Lord, it is in His good and perfect will.  This may sound ridiculous to some.  But how could I walk through this if I didn’t believe that God’s hand was on my husband, on me and on our daughters?  I know that I could not.

I don’t know God’s plan for my husband, I don’t need to.  I just need to trust that God, the One who fearfully and wonderfully made my husband, has a perfect one.  I just need to trust in Him and walk with Him.

Psalm 40 encourages me to wait patiently for Him.  In doing so He will lift me out of my dark place and put me on His solid ground.  This time, these days in the hospital are my dark place.  But, I sit and wait because I know that He is sure to rescue me.

My husband is lying in a hospital bed with wires everywhere. He is anxious and cannot find rest.  His brain has been under attach since Monday.  This is his dark place.  I pray that in it He sees Jesus.  I pray believing that Jesus is working diligently on his beautiful brain, restoring it.  I pray for peace in his heart.

The outcome of my beloveds condition is known only to God.  In this I will praise the Lord.  To know the when of his end is not my desire.  My desire is to sing His praises throughout this journey.  And in so doing that others may believe and come to Jesus Christ.

It is now morning.  My beloved is alive.  I am thanking the Lord for yet another miracle.  One day at a time, one hour at a time, one moment at a time.

I find peace and comfort in Jesus’ words.  “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”    Matthew‬ ‭6:25-27, 34

With hoped filled hearts we journey forth,
What lies ahead is unknown.
But fully trust in Jesus Christ,
His scarlet thread to each heart is sown.

We take each moment as His gift,
No matter what it may hold.
For nothing else can hold us up,
For Gods love is more precious than gold.

The sun’s come up on another day,
The nights vigil has come to an end.
Our hope alone is in His great name,
To all our needs He lovingly attends.
Dear Lord, I pray that all who read these words would know that ALL things are possible with You.  May my heart, words and actions reflect only Your light.  In Jesus’ name, Amen.